So things have changed and Fridays are now very different from ever before! Forget Friyay! I have now termed this day Friboo! (sorry to put a dampener on things)

The last few months have brought changes beyond belief and it’s time to fess up and put it down on paper. You never know maybe it will be helpful for someone else and for myself too.

Here’s how it all started… and I’ll dive straight in!

April 2015

There’s a glimmer in the air and hope on people’s faces as the sun pokes it’s head from the clouds and the early blooms start to pop up on the trees.
It’s the 1st if April and spring it seems is here, but the news we received today is certainly no April fools.
I’ve just been diagnosed with breast cancer. grade 3,  stage one triple negative! And I can’t believe it.
I’ve been here before… 18 years ago I had Hodgkin’s lymphoma in my neck and chest and that was no easy feat and what now seems to be the cause of this new cancer…

I had a bad feeling as we arrived in reception today, but I wasn’t expecting  a mastectomy and chemo to be part of the plan.
Turns out the radiotherapy I’ve had in the past, rules out a lumpectomy and radiotherapy, so a diep flap now seems to be the order of the day. It’s a lot to take in for all of us. My thoughts turn to practicalities as the questions seem to roll off my tongue, my wonderful other half looks at me in disbelief.
I’m not sure where they are coming from either or how I’m managing to stay so focused on getting everything in some sort of order. I guess it’s a way of staying in control and not letting the emotions take over.

Don’t get me wrong I’m seriously pissed off. I didn’t think I deserved to be here again, but what can you do?

If you want to check yourself then Breast Cancer Care’s diagram below is excellent, as it’s not just all about finding a lump!

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NEWS NEWS NEWS!!

Pregnancy brings with it a lot of excitement, fear, family thoughts, worries, strange sensations, bodily changes, different ‘moods’, things you have do to and get done, new shopping experiences and much, much, much, much more.

For me though that lovely little plus sign has given me the opportunity to write for the spectacular upallhours.com which I am totally over the moon excited about!! *fist pumps*

I was lucky enough to me the gorgeous Sam Sims, Founder of Up All Hours and writer of Up All Hours blog at britmuns live last month.
We hit it off straight away and started talking blogs and business.

A week or so later, over a bit of yummy blueberry cake and coffee (decaf for me obvs) at Jamie Olivers Recipease in Clapham, (check it out it’s a little nugget of a find) Sam offered me a spot writing on her site! Hurrrahhh!!

I’ll be writing a post monthly on life as a me as a new Preggo and all it brings, so be sure to check it out..  HERE

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Pregnancy and snails have a lot in common.

AJ and I are away on our lovely hols at the moment in beautiful Hossegor, France and although this on first sight seems like the perfect thing to do when you’re 3 months pregnant, not just because you get to relax and enjoy the company of your other half in beautiful sunny beachy surroundings, but it’s also a lovely idea to make sure we get some quality time together to enjoy each others company before the baby is born
And… without taking anything away from that whatsoever….. there are some definite holiday drawbacks! #who’dhavethoughtit!

Firstly, the baby news sites and apps that join you along your pregnancy journey and kindly and aptly tell you that now is a good time to take said holiday.. also omit to remind you that when you’re on holiday you will absolutely not be able to have (and join your other half in having) that aahhhh!!! total satisfaction moment, when you have been in the heat of the glorious sun all afternoon and take your first sip of a nice ice cold bear!!! Not in your remit anymore I’m afraid!

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Secondly for us one of the main reasons for coming here is the surfing! And although I am nowhere near a pro surfer I can stand up on a board and have even managed to get in to a side turn.. (yea, I’m so cool..)
But, being pregnant says, NO to surfing and is considered dangerous. Would I take the risk? No, because if anything happened I’d never forgive myself. But does it make it easier to watch everyone else running into the sea with their boards to catch the curling waves? No, it doesn’t!

So instead, I get to lay around all day on an oversized sand free beach towel and read a book which I can’t say is a terrible feat, however again there are some new things to take into consideration here. Nobody tells you that the belly gets in the way of an all over tan! I can hardly lie on my front, it’s mega uncomfortable not to mention the new addition of my now hefty boobs that I am lugging around. I’m used to having small boobs and although I’m loving having a real cleavage I now understand what it’s like for my larger breasted friends. My god they get in the way and they’re heaving buggers, truly. Mine have grown three times since I was pregnant. First when I was literally 4 weeks pregnant they rose and never again fell. Then at about 11 weeks they grew again, seemed to become more ‘milky’ and less attractive, and just last week at 13.5 weeks they grew again, this time into sort of milk baps. heavy and uncomfortable resting against my skin. They seriously remind me of cows udders and let’s face it that’s what they are becoming! Big boobs are not the be all and end all after all haha!

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And thirdly there is the heat. Now I always suffer when it’s really hot because my blood pressure drops and I drink more caffeine to keep me going. Again off limits when pregnant or certainly a very limited supply.

My breathing is so shallow that even walking to the beach 5 mins down the road is a stretch. I’ve looked it up (as you do) and it’s common place that your breathing can become difficult when pregnant but seriously I am moving around slower than my amazing 90-beep year old granny! (My inspirational Nonna as I call her) I’m so short of breath that I have to stop at the slightest incline in the road.
No cycling around like a teenager for me either! I presume the heat is making it worse but jeez it’s a slog to get around haha!

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I like doing outdoory things. That’s my fave, surfing, walking around, cycling and a picnic, rock climbing (also off limits) and I like a cold beer and a glass of wine especially on my holidays!!

But in the end I’d rather be pregnant with all my heart and to make sure that me and baby are as healthy as possible, so I guess it’s just the way it is for another 6-9months. 🙂

So the day has finally come and I am super excited to be able to share our amazing News with you that we are pregnant!
We made a little baby that’s now happily growing in my tummy. chilling out and hanging out upside down (so the 12 week scan shows)

When I started monmum AJ and I had already been trying for some time to convince and as a forward planner I set to getting the site ready in preparation for sharing my pregnancy journey alongside pregnancy and maternity fashion.
It didn’t quite go as planned though and as time went on with no positive sign on the little pee stick we realised it might just not be that simple.

So formed was Plan B and with a little help from out amazing and inspirational fertility clinic Create (more on that later) and a hell of a lot of luck and support from all our friends and family,  we got there and can now announce a healthy baby growing and already 6cm long!!

Whop whoop!

We feel like the luckiest couple alive and cannot thank everyone enough who has been there along the way!
If anyone does have any questions about ivf then please feel free to ask. I’m more than happy to help in any way I can.

HAPPY HAPPY DAYS!

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Flynn mid-rise skinny Jeans by AND. Grey Jumper by Des Petits Hauts, see similar here from Atterleyroad.com Toe polish Gargantuan green grape by OPI. Sunglasses with small leather bow detail by Chanel.